very interesting day..but I have to go out again;)I'll tell you all about it when I get home:)

my teacher:you read weblogs?
junior_engineer: yeah..I actually have my own:)
my teacher:oh yeah what's its name?
junior_engineer:oh its private...
my teacher:oooooooh
isn't it lovely to make people keep guessing and put them on hesitations and doubts;)!!!!!

Is life a project?I think engineers have a special way of looking at life and work problems...I guess atleast for instant I look at situation and instantly I find the problem and try to think systematically how to solve it..or what are the resources..but it seems this works perfectly fine at work place..but not necessarilly in life...One prof told me once that there is a difference of way of thinking between an engineer and a scientist...but he didn't go on about it...what I think is that us engineers think of application of everything...instead of just having something discovered...we want to know what we can do with this now...I mean what's the point of for example studying if you can't apply it?but I guess scientists think differently..I guess they study just for the sake of acquiring knowledge...If any scientist readying this..you should tell me how you think?

The more I learn about life...and the power of money..the more I get disappointed in my beliefs...once upon a time I used to think that money will not solve every problem...but now unfotunately I see this is not completely true..if you lose your job...what would you do?if you don't have a family to support you...how would you survive?how would you follow your dreams?..its sooooo hard....I hope all my friends who are looking for jobs..they find one....I try to keep GOD out of this...miracles do happen sometimes...but I haven't seen any recently....so this is to GOD...if you are out there..which I beilieve you are out there...and if you say you have the power to change everything in an instant...and if you are the nicest visions we know...show us something...that we know you are out there...I know you are trying to examine me or us..and with do respect...I want to pass your exam...but please show me something that I know are out there...

to love or not to love..that is the question..to be willing to open your heart to something new..something familiar..I keep on hearing this sentence over and over..."life is too short...shouldn't waste it by being unhappy"..my high school slogan was CARPE DIEM...and I am going to seize the day today:)don' t you think you should do too?

Ceilin Dion, is my other favourite singers:)

"I can read your mind and I know your story
I see what you're going through, yeah
It's an uphill climb and I'm feeling sorry
But I know it will come to you, yeah
Don't surrender
'Cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When you question me
For a simple answer
I don't know what to say, no
But it's plain to see, if you stick together
You're gonna find the way, yeah
So don't surrender
'Cause you can win
In this thing called love

That's the way it is

When life is empty
With no tomorrow
And loneliness starts to call
Baby don't worry, forget your sorrow
'Cause love's gonna conquer it all
All...


Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

I just got back from a wonderful meeting:)I have never met some one that is sooo much on the same wave length as me:)I am so excited...the first guy who I could talk to for 5 hours!!!!!!!I can't beilieve that...I could be off the market soon;)so to all the guys who are still looking and trying to make their minds about telling me how they feel;)they should let me know soon otherwise;)

yesterday went smoothly:)but today according to of the profs who is helping me analyze some data told me it probably will take some time:(the timing is not as important to me than the fact that I don't know a single word he talks about:(!!!!!I have never worked with TOF-SIMS before and I know how it works but I don't know how to interpret well and analyze an image:(its a nightmare like AFM....NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

it is all rush today:(first at 9:00 this morning I realized I had an experiment appointment with another lab!!!I completey forgot about it..I don't know what's wrong with me I am losing my memory;)anyways I got there exactly an hour late!!!but thank god because they didn't specify the time..they didn't anything to me:)but I had to run to my lab get the samples and go to another lab in another building but I forgot one of the samples so I had to go to my lab agian!:(I think I have lost some pounds today!!and I have to make sure that I am done by 5:30 today so I can run uptown for another appointment..I hope everything goes smoothly by 6:30 tonight!!

I forgot to say..the theme song of the movie was Only Time by Enya:)I am sure everyone has heard it..but if not you should..its wonderfull..and I guess as everyone keep telling me...only time will reveals the motives..

"Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows?
Only time...

And who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose?
Only time...

Who can say why your heart sighs,
As your love flies?
Only time...

And who can say why your heart cries,
When your love dies?
Only time...

Who can say when the roads meet,
That love might be,
In your heart.

And who can say when the day sleeps,
If the night keeps all your heart?
Night keeps all your heart...

Who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose?
Only time...

And who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows?
Only time...

Who knows?
Only time...

Keanu Reeves rocks..I love him..last night I saw his "sweet november" movie and it was my first time seeing him other than in Matrix..and in a more emotional and romantic situation...he is soo sweet;)anyways I guess Keanu acts mostly in philosophical movies..this film was about life as well..and it was very very interesting...gives you a whole new look on life. anyways I heard so many good stuff about him..like he shared his salary with the rest of the cast of Matrix and so on..I wish I could see him in person..By the way I didn't know he is a canadian;)and used to live in Toronto!!!!!where was I when he was here???;)

I don't know what he thinks...I can't read his mind...he doesn't say anything...I don't know how to interpret it...they teach us to be clear and I learned...but I don't know now how to deal with the people who are not...they didn't teach us to read in between the lines...or the indirect meaning behind the words and gazes and smiles...I am confused...does anyone know how to deal with these people?

last night I just got the highest amount of info and dirt;)on my classmates...unbeilivable stories!!!all thanks to Muna's data base;)Italian restuarant was fun...interesting enough was the guys on the table infront of us..I realized in 2 second that atleast 1 guy on that table is an engineer;)you ask how...while he was drinking his water;) I just wished we had gone and introduced ourselves to them as fellow engineers;)....yeah right...